Rearranging Relationships.

The other day I read something that said, "I asked God to protect me from my enemies then I began to lose my friends." ...Or something along those lines.

It really got me thinking about that. How often are we just so concerned about not being alone that we just suffer through really crappy friendships or relationships of any variety...

I think as human beings, we are made to be in relationships. It's only natural. That's why people feel lonely from time to time. And since anyone reading this is also a person, I am clearly preaching to the choir because I can guarantee that you have felt alone at some point in your life, and I bet you weren't a fan of it.

So what do we do when the only relationships that we have available to us are with people who are not good for us. People who are manipulative, selfish, and prideful? Obviously no one wants to be like, "my only friend is a really bad friend... but if I give them up then I'll be completely alone." We're so terrified of being alone that we settle for being in an unfulfilling relationship, whether romantic or platonic. It's really weird and super sad.

I got into a fight with a good friend, that fight made me realize that the friend was not as good of a friend as I had originally thought. It was one of those fights that should never reach "fight" level because it's just such a ridiculous thing, then all of a sudden the person is making a huge deal out of it and is attacking you and you're just so caught off guard that it progresses past the point of no return and at the end of it all you can think is, "holy crap.... how did I end up here?!"

Normally I would just apologize to this person... but I thought over the fight and realized that this person never takes the blame when we argue or when things are bad in our friendship. Either they find a way to blame me for it and manipulate me into taking full responsibility, or they just ignore me and wait for me to come crawling back to them.

That's not healthy at all.

So I sort of made the decision to just trust God with it. Like that quote says, God will protect us from the people that will do more harm to us than good. So we have to trust Him with it. Even if we end up having absolutely no friends, having no friends and having an amazing relationship with God where you completely trust Him to fulfill every single need that you have is so much better than being in an anxiety ridden friendship/relationship where both people are not being fulfilled.

So yeah. That's just a weird, jumbled, sorta downer thought that I had. But at the same time it's kind of encouraging. Due to the (temporary?) end of this friendship, or best-friendship at least, I have reached out to a former best friend who I have drifted apart from who I've truly missed so terribly... and if I was relying on that unreliable friend to fulfill my friendship needs, I would not have fixed the friendship with the girl that I do honestly know is an exceptionally good friend.

So yeah, God's moving in my life and rearranging my relationships... it's good! I'm excited to see the outcome of all that He's doing!